It's Officially In My Chart

Wee. 🎉. Went to get some prescriptions refilled and had the "hey I think I have an eating disorder" conversation with the doctor. 

Binge Eating Disorder is now in my chart, with a recommendation to see a therapist. I've gotten through everything else without a shrink, so I'm gonna see how I do on my own first before I start running to counseling appointments and group therapy. 

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