This Is Some BULLSHIT
So I've been working really hard at containing my binges. I know I still make unhealthy choices, but I'm working REALLY hard to eat on a regular schedule and not let myself get HUNGRY hungry, because that's what sets off a binge.
Things were extra difficult over the weekend as we were traveling and there were a lot of bad decisions made. But damn. Why is the scale going UP?!? I'm so mad. I haven't even been indulging in sweets and what not. It's just... grr!! I'm frustrated.
I'm training myself to take smaller bites, and chew more thoroughly, and just generally eat slower. I *feel* like I'm eating less. It's just so bizarre to make these changes and to see the number on the scale go up. I mean, even if it was holding steady, I'd be less annoyed.
And thankfully we're home now, so no more McDonald's breakfast multiple days in a row. And back to my "no soda" normalcy. I mean, I know those things definitely had an impact. It's just so frustrating.
And ok, when we went to IHOP I still ordered pancakes, but not pancakes AND eggs AND hashbrowns AND bacon. But still somehow after eating my pancakes (slowly and in small bites) I still heard "I don't know how you can eat that much food". Seriously? It was one serving of pancakes, I don't see the problem here.
Just annoyed. At everything. Which makes me want to eat, because of course.
Things were extra difficult over the weekend as we were traveling and there were a lot of bad decisions made. But damn. Why is the scale going UP?!? I'm so mad. I haven't even been indulging in sweets and what not. It's just... grr!! I'm frustrated.
I'm training myself to take smaller bites, and chew more thoroughly, and just generally eat slower. I *feel* like I'm eating less. It's just so bizarre to make these changes and to see the number on the scale go up. I mean, even if it was holding steady, I'd be less annoyed.
And thankfully we're home now, so no more McDonald's breakfast multiple days in a row. And back to my "no soda" normalcy. I mean, I know those things definitely had an impact. It's just so frustrating.
And ok, when we went to IHOP I still ordered pancakes, but not pancakes AND eggs AND hashbrowns AND bacon. But still somehow after eating my pancakes (slowly and in small bites) I still heard "I don't know how you can eat that much food". Seriously? It was one serving of pancakes, I don't see the problem here.
Just annoyed. At everything. Which makes me want to eat, because of course.
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