Cheers to the Freakin Weekend

So, it's becoming apparent to me that while, yes, I absolutely do have binge eating problems, I also struggle with overeating in general.  I think on two sides of this it's that I use food as a reward system (I did good, I can have a treat.) and I also justify treats and snack when I have a bad day (I totally deserve this because I'm suffering).  Literally neither of these are good.

Oh, and even worse, I catch myself a LOT in the mindset of "I need to eat all of this right now so it's not in the house and I won't eat it later".  Which is REALLY stupid.  I'd be 100000x better off if I had a little bit over long periods of time instead of eating all the things all at once. 

Tiredness seems to really be an issue with me not eating correctly.  If I've been busy and I get hungry, then I eat SUPER fast so I can get back to what I was doing. 

So while I didn't make maybe all the best choices this weekend (I'm looking at you Brownie Batter donut and Caramel Heath Brownie Blizzard), I did learn a few more things about how I eat and what I'm doing wrong, so I'm still counting it as a win.  I will not give myself a food prize though.  LOL

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